The Lie I Believed For Too Long

For years, I thought I had failed.

I didn’t go to college.
I didn’t climb the corporate ladder.
I didn’t have the six-figure career or the shiny accolades to post about.

And because of that, I gave myself so much shit.

Every job I ever held, I gave it everything I had.
I worked hard—harder than anyone could’ve expected.
But no matter how good I was, I never stayed in one place too long.

And for the longest time, I thought that made me less than.

I thought the amount of money I earned, the linear path I didn’t follow, somehow meant I wasn’t successful.
That I hadn’t lived up to my potential.

But I see it now.

I was never meant to walk that path.
And none of that was failure.

When You Know Better, You Do Better

There’s a phrase I live by now: When you know better, you do better.

But here’s the thing—just knowing better doesn’t change a damn thing unless you choose differently.

And so many people don’t. They keep doing the same shit, expecting different results. That’s the very definition of insanity, and I can’t wrap my head around it.

Don’t get me wrong—there were plenty of moments in my own life when I knew better but chose the same. Out of fear. Out of shame. Out of not holding myself accountable the way I do now.

But here’s what I’ve learned: everything begins and ends with me. I can’t blame anyone else. I can’t use the messy, ugly parts of my life as a crutch or an excuse. I damn sure can’t blame anyone else for my failures.

Every choice is mine.
And every choice dictates my future.

That’s the truth—plain and simple.

Lessons in the Mud (And the Swamp)

When we almost lost everything—when we were staring bankruptcy in the face—I learned a lesson. I made a change.

When we got hit with a mountain of IRS debt because we neglected to understand our tax situation, I learned a lesson. I made a change.

We had no mentors. No financial role models. No one to show us how to do life. Not in relationships, not in money, not in any of the places that mattered.

And I’ll be honest—that’s the biggest blessing we ever had.

Because it forced us to become who we are today.

No one gave us a damn thing. We never asked for it either.

I didn’t have help raising our kids—no grandparents swooping in to give us a break, no relatives handing us cash when we were drowning.

It was just me and Kevin. And we had to figure it the hell out.

The Power of Owning It

When I started exploring Human Design, it gave me language for what I’d always felt but couldn’t explain.

I wasn’t built for the linear path. I wasn’t broken or flaky or restless—I was designed to move, to pivot, to fix what was broken and bring light to injustice. To follow sparks of curiosity and joy.

And that understanding changed everything.

I stopped seeing my career path as a series of failures. I stopped chasing someone else’s version of success. I stopped giving myself shit for not fitting into a box.

And more importantly, I started holding myself accountable in ways I never had before.

I stopped using fear as an excuse.
I stopped pretending the hard parts of my life were someone else’s fault.

When you know better, you do better.

And if you’re not choosing to do better, knowing doesn’t mean shit.

My Greatest Success

Today, when I look at my life, I see it clearly.

The greatest title I will ever hold is Mom.
The greatest role I will ever play is Wife.

The man I chose to love and the family we’ve built—that’s my life’s work. And I am damn proud of it.

Kevin and I are a team. An unbreakable one. We rely on each other and no one else. We have built a marriage rooted in trust, determination, and mutual respect. No one will ever take that from us.

And whatever I choose to do moving forward—whether it brings in six figures or six dollars—will be enough. Because I am enough.

I don’t operate from fear anymore. I don’t think in scarcity. I move through life knowing that abundance will find me because I will it to be so.

I think abundantly. I love abundantly. I choose abundantly.

And that’s more than enough.

Rooted in Truth

If you’ve ever questioned your worth based on someone else’s definition of success—stop.

You are not behind.
You are not broken.
You are exactly who you are designed to be.

And if you choose to own that, to stand in it, to move through life accountable and awake—you will find your abundance.

One choice at a time.